This is 30!

Personally...I think I am 31 weeks, but we'll go with what the DR has on the chart:)

 

 We are in the middle of our "birth classes"..and I didn't anticipate how completely hysterical they would be.  Or maybe Matt and I just take them a little lightly...I think it is really good bonding, and Matt specifically is learning a LOT (since he hasn't read a thing, though did download some funny daddy ap that a friend suggested).  During our first class, about half way through he turned to me and admitted "this is making me very nervous".  Ha!  Me too buddy! Get your game face on, we've having a baby one way or another!

How Far Along? 30ish weeks!

Total Weight Gain: I don't like this question any longer..i'm round, i'm growing a baby, and I stopped weighing myself at home.

Maternity Clothes: I would say 75% of the time, yes...even had to stop in and pick up an uber fashionable pair of jean shorts so that I don't sweat to death taking Wrigley for walks.  My favorite purchases right now are maternity tanks to go under everything I still try to squeeze into in my closet...my soft Gap black lounge pants (just try to tell me to stop wearing them after baby!)...and Piko tops.  Oh Piko tops, you fit me regardless of my size, though I am certain nobody is looking twice to check this girl out!

Stretch Marks: Nope.  Mom and Meredith didn't seem to have any, so hopefully it is just genetics.  I still slather Matt's moms homemade lotion on my belly.  She's a pharmacist and swears by it.  So I do too.

Best Moment This Week: That is an easy one, our 4D ultrasound appointment last Saturday.  I kept the lady talking up a storm so that she scanned us for almost an hour!  I didn't notice a thing she was saying, as my eyes were glued to the screen, but Matt noted that she used the word "vagina" very loosely and very often.  I think I forget that these "girlie" words aren't in his typical daily vocab!

Sleep: Making it through the night, but I toss and turn a bit...and wake up on my back a few times during the night to a small panic.  I can't wait to sleep on my stomach in my flamingo stance once again!

Miss Anything: Still missing cocktails, especially during my birthday celebrations this week.

Movement? All the time.  They are to the point that my belly shakes, which is funny and completely distracting at work.

Food Cravings: Hmm not really! Still no interest in meat though!

Belly Button In Or Out? In

Symptoms: Sleepy, Braxton Hicks Contractions, and so THIRSTY!  I could literally fall in a river and not drown- would just drink it dry.

Wedding Ring On or Off? On

Happy Or Moody Most Of The Time? Pretty happy/sappy/emotional

Looking Forward To: My baby shower with all of my lovely friends and family

11,315 days old

It is my 31st birthday.  How is that even possible, I think to myself today.  When I was in my early twenties, I would have told you a list of things, goals, that I would accomplish around this time in my life.  It is amazing to watch those unfold, in Gods timely fashion...not precisely how I had planned or envisioned in my early years...but just as perfectly as ever.  I have wanted to be a mother my entire life. I always saw that as a large part of my grown up years.  Surrounded by children to smoother with love.  I first took a shot at it mothering my little sister, come to find out- I was much better at being her friend and supporter, than her rule maker.  Last weekend, Matt convinced me to schedule a 4D ultrasound appointment.  Beforehand, I was blase' about the whole experience, because honestly, I'll love her to pieces regardless of what she looks like, and who she favors...and I felt like I might not have the same level of excitement during the hospital stay, if I had a preview of what was to come.  Was I wrong....the experience and first sight of those lips, cheeks and little hands...I can't explain in words what they do to your heart.  It's an explosion really.  A love explosion that reaches far down into the depths of my soul...my mothering soul.  I want to kiss her 1 million times, and tell her how beautiful she is.  Tell her I will love her every. single. day. of her life.  Tell her that I will support her. Encourage her. Guide her.  I will try to not only be her mom, but at some point, when the time is right, will try my hardest to transition to her best friend.  My mom has been so amazing at that transition...in the mid 20's of life...making her even more irreplaceable.

So, happy birthday to me...what a joyous year this will be.